the wave

People often view me as somebody quiet. They would tell me to lighten up or liven up and relax. I think because I tend to spin my mind over things, so my face looks more serious. Plus insufficient sleep and a natural long-shaped face and pointed chin makes it look more unrelaxed. But I am still usually quite quiet. Only the random moment will I say something that might be funny. Or crazy, and not everybody can accept it. I mean not psycho-crazy or retarded-crazy, but just something really wild and it doesn't necessarily jive well with everybody. Some people get it and will be able to take it and laugh with me. Others will widen their eyes with question & exclamation marks popping out of their heads and be like "Whoah!... that's different from what I noramlly get from others".

I try to think what people say to get a conversation going. Often it is a light humour remark and then the other person catches on and adds another remark. And then another subject comes up and if the other person has something to say about that, then it gets going. Otherwise maybe another joke comes up as if finding something to say. It's like, you have to be able to catch onto a wave and ride with it. Either that or you have to initiate a wave that others are willing to ride on. And that's what I have difficulty with. Does it have to do with confidence? Lack of practice? Stiffness in my mind? All of the above?