three pisses
STIMULATION #1/3:Dad created a blaming tone when he said they had to pay a bigger amount because I was no longer working at Century 21. He said "leen lui" which means "causing a bad thing to happen to" and is usually used for major situations. That's one of the things about Dad that pisses me off. He likes to (or has a tendency to anyway) exaggerate or twist things to bring up a more emotional or alarming situation than it really is, and seemingly without regard for other people's feelings in the process. I had to pay $45 plus tax for a Costco membership and simply provided them a second card to use because it was free. Now the membership or the card is no longer valid and they would have to pay $55 or something (ie: no discount). Well, first of all, nobody said they must have a Costco membership. Second, even if I quit and not fired, the membership would have been over either way. Why the f*ck does he have to put words the way he does and make me feel all bad about it? It isn't as if I wanted to get fired.
STIMULATION #2/3:The conversation quickly goes to my Mom saying that I did not treasure (cantonese = jun sik) my job when I had it. That just build up on my nerves from Stimulation #1. Just because I got let go doesn't mean I did not "jun sik" my job. And if I "jun sik" my job, that doesn't guarantee that I will be able to keep my job. Am I not making sense in any of this?? Am I being illogical here?
STIMULATION #3/3:And then next was Mom repeating what she had suggested before and I still find to be quite bullsh*t a concept that is beyond my comprehension. She said that I should not have requested for time off during the time that I was explicitly told not to take time off because that could be a reason why I was let go. How much more bull could anything else be?? You see, at C21, we are not allowed to take December and January off. In an email (ie: documented correspondence) with the manager "CS" back in September 2007, I had confirmed whether I was not allowed to take any time off including such as for exam purposes and I was told those were exceptions. It was not simply verbal, it was in letter. So is it realistic that a request for day off for exam purpose would actually contribute to the decision to let me go? What a f*cked up concept to try entertaining minds with. Actually, I originally asked for just half a day but CS told me to might as well take the whole day. Other people have done that. Mom says they have been there longer. Whatever. That's just f*cked up. How does sh*t like this come from my parents? Is it really from lack of education and ignorance of the way Canadian workplaces function in the 21st century (as opposed to Hong Kong workplaces in the 60's). Or am I the one who's f*cked up?
Excuse the language by the way. Mom has an annoying tendency of creating preconceptions about things and then they just stick to her mind like hyper-crazy glue. Even after she has been corrected, she still operates by them. Either that's the way her mind cells were oriented or she still doesn't understand the logic behind the correction.
Anyway Mom & Dad know I am pissed about it so maybe they're leaving me alone and not want to bother with saying anymore to get me going again. But of course Mom, always feeling the need to say something, will mutter that I am having a tantrum even though they are "just telling me something". Well, if you really do understand me and know my psychology as you claim, you would be a lot more careful about the way you say things within audible distance.
And of course if you have your ways which you won't change and I have my thoughts that I won't budge, then we'll just have to continue this friction then. We'll just have to accept it as it is. I mean, I have already for the longest time suggest that they don't say anything (because things are probably better off overall that way). I mean, I am quite sensitive and while I try my best to get through it all without being a baby, not let it affect me that much, and create as positive an outcome as possible for all (that means including myself as well).... there are still certain things that should remain and as such need to be balanced with. After all, is it reasonable for me to scrap all my tendencies and completely transform into somebody else with none of the personalities or beliefs that define James Tong?
STIMULATION #2/3:The conversation quickly goes to my Mom saying that I did not treasure (cantonese = jun sik) my job when I had it. That just build up on my nerves from Stimulation #1. Just because I got let go doesn't mean I did not "jun sik" my job. And if I "jun sik" my job, that doesn't guarantee that I will be able to keep my job. Am I not making sense in any of this?? Am I being illogical here?
STIMULATION #3/3:And then next was Mom repeating what she had suggested before and I still find to be quite bullsh*t a concept that is beyond my comprehension. She said that I should not have requested for time off during the time that I was explicitly told not to take time off because that could be a reason why I was let go. How much more bull could anything else be?? You see, at C21, we are not allowed to take December and January off. In an email (ie: documented correspondence) with the manager "CS" back in September 2007, I had confirmed whether I was not allowed to take any time off including such as for exam purposes and I was told those were exceptions. It was not simply verbal, it was in letter. So is it realistic that a request for day off for exam purpose would actually contribute to the decision to let me go? What a f*cked up concept to try entertaining minds with. Actually, I originally asked for just half a day but CS told me to might as well take the whole day. Other people have done that. Mom says they have been there longer. Whatever. That's just f*cked up. How does sh*t like this come from my parents? Is it really from lack of education and ignorance of the way Canadian workplaces function in the 21st century (as opposed to Hong Kong workplaces in the 60's). Or am I the one who's f*cked up?
Excuse the language by the way. Mom has an annoying tendency of creating preconceptions about things and then they just stick to her mind like hyper-crazy glue. Even after she has been corrected, she still operates by them. Either that's the way her mind cells were oriented or she still doesn't understand the logic behind the correction.
Anyway Mom & Dad know I am pissed about it so maybe they're leaving me alone and not want to bother with saying anymore to get me going again. But of course Mom, always feeling the need to say something, will mutter that I am having a tantrum even though they are "just telling me something". Well, if you really do understand me and know my psychology as you claim, you would be a lot more careful about the way you say things within audible distance.
And of course if you have your ways which you won't change and I have my thoughts that I won't budge, then we'll just have to continue this friction then. We'll just have to accept it as it is. I mean, I have already for the longest time suggest that they don't say anything (because things are probably better off overall that way). I mean, I am quite sensitive and while I try my best to get through it all without being a baby, not let it affect me that much, and create as positive an outcome as possible for all (that means including myself as well).... there are still certain things that should remain and as such need to be balanced with. After all, is it reasonable for me to scrap all my tendencies and completely transform into somebody else with none of the personalities or beliefs that define James Tong?
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