regrets

DEFINED:
From childhood, I tend to be in my own little world and I will spin my mind around things that were or could've been. I have also been rather introverted. Introverted in the sense that I don't have much confidence and that I tend to think of unhappy things and dreaming about things that I wish had/would happen. But it's good that these mental activities have been reduced in the past few years, presumably because of three reasons. One, getting sick and tired of doing it. I value my braincells and I've lost a lot while growing up. Two, it affects my appearance physically and the way I communicate with others. It has created mental blocks which severely interfere with my mind from running as it could have been. Three, getting more established in career and what I want to do in life, and perhaps also gaining some maturity has improved my self-confidence.
In any case, I just want to write some notes here. In the future, somebody can read it or I could read it and laugh at myself. Half of me would consider the following to be regrets while the other half is, under the influence of other's opinions, saying that regrets are useless. No use crying over spilt milk as I remember seiraries (aka: seira_talks, Aries Ang) said once. I mean, one can simply say that my writing all this stuff is already a mental activity of trying to create a situation that would never be. A dream, dwelling myself in an illusion.

Elementary School:
I'm sure there were things that I wish I did in elementary school but I think I was too little and that whatever it was that I regretted couldn't have been such a big deal that it would ever warrant turning back the clock if I was given the chance.
I guess, if anything, it would be that I wish I took french immersion. That would've been the only way to really learn french and know enough to barely consider myself "bi-lingual". But then I couldn't have known/thought about these things at that time.

Junior Secondary:
There may be more, but the one thing I always tend to repeat is that I took Foods&Nutrition 9 instead of Auto Mechanics. At that time, I just wanted to not do Art so I quickly just chose something else. Had I took AutoMech, I would have at least had a concept and maybe a foundation on basic vehicle mechanics. It may or may not have served much use in the years following to date, but I'm sure would still have been more practical than F&N. At least if I wanted to learn about cooking and nutrition, I could've just gone to the library and borrow a book. But I couldn't do the same with auto mechanics. It may even have helped me in the future when I was deciding whether to take up airplane mechanics at BCIT. If not, it would still have helped me when I get a car and needing to maintain it and stuff. These days, my interest in car audio has somewhat brought me to the area of car tuning and modifying. Not that I'm actually interested, but sometimes I feel tempted to turn my car into one of those flashy looking coupes with body kits, turbo kits, paint job, and all the bells & whistles that u can add to the car to improve looks and performance. But none of that having point without an awesome sound system. After all, I realized that about 80% of the time that I listen to music is in my car. And I do enjoy driving around enjoying my favorite songs. These days, it may not be 80% anymore becuz right now my Civic deck is still stock and cannot play mp3's and I miss listening to my collection. So I've been resorting to listening to it at home in my computer. Sound quality is of course not the same, but it's still my treasured collection!

Senior Secondary:
One thing I could've done was take Drama class. So at least I would have a concept about acting and I could also see if I am fit at all. In the future, I would like to take an acting class.
Another thing I could've also done was repeat one term to upgrade a course grade. Diana To did that and she got into SFU. Or I could've at least re-applied to the appropriate faculties at UBC and SFU. What I originally did was apply for Sciene and Applied Science at UBC but Arts and Science at SFU. What can be more stupid? Hehe... oh well.

UVic:
I guess taking science in first year was necessary. As was all those hours and hours upon hours and hours spent on inquiring into Christianity. But I guess what I could have done was take fewer courses per term (3 or 4 instead of 5 or 6) and work part-time stocking stuff at London Drugs or something. That way, I would have gotten rid of the crappy (but somewhat necessary) job experience by the time I graduated and then I could've actually landed a more solid full-time work.